The closer I come to my departure, the more I realize how much I’m leaving behind, and the more sad and slightly heart broken I feel. When I was first accepted to TAPIF, I couldn’t wait to pack my bags and get out of here. The last few weeks or so though, I’ve been realizing how truly blessed and loved I am. I am surrounded by people daily that are 100% for me, and it kind of breaks my heart to leave all of them. I kind of wish I could take all of them with me to France. I have finally reached a point in my life where I am content with the cards I’ve been dealt and am overjoyed by how much love I have in my life. All of this just to pack up and leave. I’m not saying that I regret moving to France now because I definitely do not. However, I realize now that I’m not running away, but rather, going on an adventure that I need to go on for myself. I still feel that I have a lot of individual growing up to do in all aspects of my life. This is my personal journey that God is putting me on, and I need to explore and become more of myself now. I just now know that when I get back, I will be returning to arms full of love and support, no matter where I end up after these upcoming 8 months in France, whether that’s grad school or scrambling to find another job. Let’s hope it’s not the latter, but if it is, I will sleep well knowing that my friends and family have my back. I pray that this time abroad will grow me into the woman I know that I will become and allow me to embrace my journey to its full capacity.
So, basically, all I really wanted to do was give a shout out to everyone in my life that have been supporting me through everything that I’ve been through and experienced this past year and everything that I will experience in this year to come. I am seriously beyond thankful for all of you, whatever role you have played in my life, and I cannot wait to share my life in France with you and share my life in the United States with the life and relationships that I establish in France. I can say that my heart is powerfully and beautifully full right now.
so much love et à plus mes amis!